Leadership

First, I made a new tag/label/thing.  "happy memories".  I decided that I should keep happy things under a label so that if I want to, I could find them quickly when I need to cheer myself up.

Second, I've been feeling pretty upset lately.  I'm not going to talk about them here cuz this is supposed to be a happy post.  However, there's a few people that have been helping a lot.

I always feel really happy when people mention me in these things, but I never bothered to do this with any of them, so I kept losing them.  This time, I'm keeping this here so that I could look back on it easier rather than having to dig through Twitter tweets.
I met Nana through a Kaoris fic that she did.  In the beginning, I was a bit hesitant.  Meeting people has the possibility of breeding drama, which, while there's always lots of it, I prefer to keep away from myself.  There's already enough shit going on in my life.  However, I'm glad I met her.  As I told her through Twitter DMs,

I see why Kaoru likes being with you guys so much now, though.I can be at my most depressed, the epitome of emo, the droopiest meatsack, that point where everything is shit.And then I tweet at you guys and it's like
Fuck. I can't stop smiling.

 And it's true.  I can't think of better words to explain it than that.

Another thing that happened that I also consider to be kinda happy (or at least not extremely depressing) is this conversation:

[4:46:34 PM] ~PikaPrincess~ Lee*Chao: If say, hypothetically,
[4:47:05 PM] ~PikaPrincess~ Lee*Chao: someone had never been in a chorus before. Never covered a song before. They wouldn't make a good chorus leader, right?
[4:47:24 PM] Kaobro: It really depends on their leading skills.
[4:47:49 PM] Kaobro: Some people are just naturally better at leading than others are, experienced or not.
[4:48:03 PM] Kaobro: Of course, an experienced chorus leader is good, but it just really depends on the person.
[4:48:06 PM] Kaobro: If that makes any sense.

      This issue has been bothering me for a long time by now. I really don't feel like I'm any good as KPC's leader.  I lack a buttload of experience.
     However, I guess... Kaoru's words gave me a little bit of hope.  Even though there's a really obvious flaw in there (can you see it? Hint: It has to do with a quality that I do not possess), I somehow feel better seeing it.  I'm not really sure either.