Helpless

I apologize, as I'm most likely not making sense at the moment.  There's a lot of emotions in me right now, and not much words.

     Internet relationships, whether friendship or otherwise, lack a lot of things.  However, the things that it lacks the most that I feel like I so desperately need are wordless communication and reassurance.
     That moment where you're unable to communicate your feelings through words properly is the moment where you're at your weakest, because you've rendered yourself useless.  When someone is upset, I can't hug them.  I can't touch them, let them know that I'm here.  Words are actually rather weak.  While they sometimes breach the mental parts of the mind, they rarely ever scratch the emotional portion.  And even so, when its the mental and emotional parts that are in turmoil, the best answer is physical.
    The hardest things to cure are the things that separate you emotionally and physically.  Physically you're fine, but emotionally, it hurts, it hurts so much.   When you just want to break away from the physical plane until your mental or emotional conflict is gone... that's when you need someone to physically be there for you.  It's unfortunate that I can't be that person...
     I live each day not knowing if you're alive or not.  If someone dies, how would I know?  If someone is dangerously injured or ill, how would I know?  I would be none of the wiser...