The weekend had a kind of melancholic feeling to it. I'm not exactly sure why. A couple of times, over the weekend, I really wanted to cry, but there was no reason why. This is one of those times.
In general, the atmosphere of this weekend was rather depressing. It felt like more people were upset this weekend than usual. Perhaps it's the winter depression setting in. Or maybe it's just my observation.
The hardest thing to do seems to be trying to cheer someone up when they're feeling the same way you do, and that feeling just happens to be negative emotions without reasoning. After all, it's difficult to argue against an illogical person.
I want to channel it into something productive; a picture, a song, a fic... But that would also be counterproductive because I have work to do. Although... in the end, I can't even concentrate on work.
KPC's got more projects going on now. I have to stand strong for them. School's getting harder and we're getting more group projects. My family depends on me. I have to stand strong there too. And friends are feeling the upsetting feelings just as much as I am. I need to be strong for them as well.
However, I'm not strong enough for even myself. I'm just letting everybody down.
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