I have just realized something.  It's not really important, I guess (although I suppose it is to me), and it seems rather obvious now.

I lack major will-power.

I mean, I always knew that I'm not a willful type of person.  I can never be the confident, intimidating onee-chan character that I want to be.  However, I didn't realize how much will-power I lacked until it hit me while I was browsing Tumblr.

I also realized today that while I'm comfortable with hugging other people, I'm not as comfortable when they hug back.  I guess I'm just not used to that /o/