Feelings

I'm a Lee and I don't understand feelings.

There's some type of feeling here, a negative feeling, and I just don't know what it is...  Loneliness?  Disappointment?  Or am I just simply really uninspired?  Or... what?  I don't get it.  I just don't get it.

I get in call, and after a while, I feel antsy.  I get out of call, and after a while, I feel empty.  Can't I be satisfied?  Not really, it seems.

I have things I should be doing.  Ceramics, homework, fanfics, art... and I just can't bring myself to do anything because I feel like the stupidest sack of shit on the planet for no actual reason...  I try to shove it off, but in the end I just flop back and forth like a mood-swinging fish.

Someone, please write a book or something about feelings.  Explain what this shitbag of a thing called a mood is.