Blegh

     My mood was fine today, and I thought I'd be able to get through.  I was trying to cook, but then my dad came home and told me I'm too slow and took over.  Then my brother came into my room, saw that I typed "My birthday is in 3 days", and said, "Oh really? I totally forgot!"  I have no idea if he's being sarcastically indifferent or what, but it hurt.

     I actually really don't like my birthday.  Bad shit always happens on my birthday.  I guess it's part of being a bad omen LOL.  For the past couple years, I've been sick on my birthday.  I think it happened even before that, although I was too stupid to notice.  I hope it doesn't happen this year... (although I guess that's what I get for having a birthday during the change of seasons LOL)  Since it's also just after the winter months, it also means I'm usually trying to recover from an depression-induced grade drop.  This year, I have a dentist's appointment on my birthday.  I hate going to the dentist.
     I think I would be more okay with not having things when they're not dangled in front of my face, when I'm not told of all that could've been.  I get told that on my birthday, they're going to take me here and there and I'll get this and that, and it all crumbles away in the end.  Good grief, if I was going to just spend my birthday in my room alone, then I can at least look forward to that without making room for your plans only to be told they were canceled.

     My mood's really bad and the internet is cutting in and out right now.  Woo...