Happy Morning

Today has been a good morning for me!  Mom wasn't home today, so I decided to make some pancakes for my brother and me!

I normally don't cook for multiple reasons.

1. I used to be not allowed to cook.  Sometimes, I forget that I'm kinda sorta allowed to now. (Kinda.  Parents are still insanely iffy.)
2. It's... new to me.  Like I said, I used to be not allowed to.  And so I'm scared of messing up and burning the house down and all those other things my parents told me would happen.
3. Mom's always in the kitchen.  I personally try to avoid contact with my mom when possible.

However, today, she's out! So I did pancakes.

(The little one on the top is so cute~!)

It was a really nice experience.  I actually have a kind of maternal instinct that comes out from time to time.  Also, it was my first time doing pancakes on my own!

I'm really happy about how they came out, too.  I put in chocolate and mint chips in there (cuz I love chocolate <3 ).  They came out all light and fluffy~

(I feel like I'm making a bigger deal of this than it actually is though LOL)

Feelings

Sometimes, I wonder about myself.  I'll give advice to others, comfort others, but in the end, I'm just useless when it comes to myself.  Isn't it true that I should know myself the best?  How come I barely know myself?

When a very close friend, a non-blood-related sister, was suffering from not knowing her own feelings, I helped her by telling her to visualize walking away from the problem.
But...

How can I myself walk away from my problem when I don't even know what it is?

Right now, I just feel the negative feelings washing over me in waves.  I don't know where they're coming from, and I don't know why they're here.  Would they go away on their own?  Should I talk to someone about them?

How do I talk about them when I don't know anything about them?

I told her that I personally believe that there are multiple planes of reality: A physical plane, a mental plane, and an emotional plane.  Because they are in separate planes, they sometimes need messages from each other.  However, this problem seems to be entirely in the emotional plane.  The problem isn't miscommunication.

What do I do...?

Tuna Wrap

Daddy brought home a tuna wrap! .w. Yay~!
It's my first time trying it.  It's different? LOL
From what I'm seeing, I think there's tuna (duh), tomato, lettuce (Ithink?)(it'saleaf.howaboutthat.), onion, and something else.  It's mostly tuna. (duh.)
It's kinda cool.  Like I said, though, it's also kinda different.
And that's about it.  Useless blog post is useless.

Politics

     I realized that I was being really unfair to other people who follow me but have conflicting views.  I... don't really know where else to put this.  (I'm actually honestly too prideful to go up to the people privately and apologize to them.  I need to work on this too...)

     I apologize for unfairly pushing my opinions into other people's faces.  In all honesty, I don't care whether you're a democrat or a republican or a peace party or whatever.  If you're willing to put up with my stupidity, then I'm willing to give you a chance.  I feel especially bad for Republicans that follow me due to how I was acting last month.  Like I said, I'm really sorry.

     That being said, there's a lot of hate on Republicans this time around.  (Unless you're in my family.  When they're not hating on the government in general, they're hating on Republicans.)  I understand that being a Republican and liking Romney and having a cool personality have nothing to do with each other.  I apologize if I don't show it.

Purpose/Commitment

I originally made this blog simply to relieve feelings when I could otherwise not do so.

     I'm not used to laying my feelings out like this.  I usually relieve feelings in ways that... tend to leave others without an explanation.  Case in point being going through Eva's blog and vlogs and going through tweets (especially Eva's) and faving things I found helpful or that I want to see again in the future or whatever.  (I find Eva's "voice" in both the physical and literature sense to be rather soothing.)

However, Eva's back now.  I didn't realize it immediately due to her still not appearing when I typed in "Eva" on Twitter.

Like so.

Even so... I said that I would keep this blog up.  A commitment.  I've never been all that good at this commitment stuff before.  (One of those reasons why I don't plan on dating any time soon.)  And so, this blog will continue staying alive.  Because if I want to live a normal life, I need to learn how to commit.

Tuning

It feels like there's a lot of misconceptions about tuning.  I don't think anyone would read this, but I just want to share my views about tuning.  I don't really care what other people think about it and whether they like it or not, I just personally think it's unrealistic to judge and/or dislike a person/group merely because they use tuning.

However, the most egregious and most common misconception is probably...

Tuning makes everything it touches sound better.

A lot of people seem to think that tuning can magically "fix" voices so that they'd sound beautiful no matter what.

However, I'll share with you a little secret.

Tuning can't:

1. Make you sound manlier
2. Make you sound cuter
3. Make you sound prettier
4. "Fix" bad voices
5. Make you sound like anything that's not you

Basically? Tuning isn't magic.

KPC bbies

I swear, I must be the worst chorus (co)leader in existence.  I'm just... today is one of those days where I just hate myself.  A lot.  And it feels like I can't do anything right.

I think I'll do a post about KPC later, when I'm feeling better.

Anyways, KPC just had our third chorus uploaded, second full chorus.

Everyone sounds beautiful in it (except me, of course. Thank god I didn't have an actual solo.)  However, I think the one and only thing that's keeping me from crying right now is...

Kenta commented on it.
And he likes it.

those high notes <3 ahhh you guys are good

kentamidorin 2 days ago

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My chorus. Kenta commented on my chorus. and he thinks we're good.
jadlkfjdsflksdfjholyshit.

However, we were late partially because I turned my lines in so late... it was supposed to be finished in August. Whoops.
I also happened to have neglected our latest chorus as well.  We were supposed to have it finished by September.  I just did my lines last Saturday.  Double whoops.

I really don't know how I'm allowed to lead this amazing group of people when I can't do anything worth jackshit.