Motivational Assembly (with guest speaker Keith Hawkins)

Warning: This is a 2am post.

Today, we had a motivational assembly at school in honor of February being black history month.  Keith Hawkins came in as a guest speaker, and he seems pretty cool and funny, I guess, but a lot of his words weren't really hitting it for me.

The two big things that most students probably remembered from the assembly were "It's not about the IQ, it's about the I Will." and "The biggest room in the world is the room for improvement."  Makes sense, since those two were the catchiest things he said.

I think part of why I wasn't really affected by his speech was because of his speaking style.  It's always nice hearing someone speak in a relaxed, informal way.  However, his delivery kind of smothered some of the message in my opinion.  I'm not sure if it was only me or if others also felt that way, though.

He touches upon a lot of things, although I wish he went into more details on some things more than other things.  He touched upon the fact that, even if doing drugs is bad, we shouldn't look down upon people who use drugs, and that people can fall and get back up.  However, he didn't really go into detail on that part, which I felt was a shame.  I feel like nowadays, with society pushing the idea that the top is where we want to be, we're starting to see the bottom in a really harsh light.  And that upsets me, because I want to believe that, despite the fact that I've fallen, I can climb back up again.  I'm not entirely worthless despite being at the bottom currently.

A good portion of the speech was spent on the fact that we are all family and we should all love each other.  He stated, "I don't have to know you to love you."  I wondered then if he should've gone over the different types of love, since I feel like people don't really understand that.  When I say platonic love, a lot of people look at me like I've grown multiple heads.  Of course we all need love.  Does it have to be romantic love?  Of course not.  I've said that, I've said that if I have love from family and friends then everything is fine, and they tell me, "No! It's not the same!"  Of course it's not the same.  And it shouldn't.  Maybe I don't want romantic love. Is that okay?  Of course it is.

He stated that we should all love each other and a bunch of other warm fluffy junk along the same topic.  And I kind of disagree with that.  We shouldn't dislike based on stereotypes, race, skin color, whatever.  However, there are still things that we dislike, such as twitchy legs or certain voice types that just rub us wrong.  Are we allowed to have dislikes?  I think so.  Should we let it get in the way, turning into some kind of odd hate with no base?  Uh, no.  Hate is p.bad, but dislikes, in my opinion, are what makes us human.

However, he also pointed out that a lot of other mushy junk said by other speakers is also ineffective.  I think my favorite part was, "Do you really want me to stand here and yell things like 'YEA! BE POSITIVE!'  I think your teachers there would look at me like 'Be positive? Be positive?! What does that even mean?!'"  He then went on a tangent about how "be positive" is not what's going to help us through school.  We can't turn in blank sheets of paper and reply to the teacher with, "I was being positive!"  He yelled out to end the tangent with, "But no really! What does 'BE POSITIVE' even mean?! Is that a blood type or something?!"

Anyways, it's 2 in the morning, this is all I remember, and I should be sleeping since I have a test first period tomorrow morning.

10 Good Things About Myself

My therapist wanted me to do something like this, so I decided to put it here anyways and hopefully this will boost my self-esteem a little maybe.

1. I am pretty decent at organizing when I put my mind to it.  Things like making lists, summarizing points of action and available tools, putting together resources and stuff.
2. I am a decent writer, I guess.  At the very least, my grammar is good.
3. I am a decent cook?  At the very least, I can make things without burning the kitchen or anything like that.
4. I am pretty decent at analysis, I suppose?  Self-analysis, book analysis, character analysis...
5. I can type quickly.  I hope that counts.
6. I am responsible enough to remember to shower daily, even if it's not at the most appropriate times (1 in the morning, anyone?).  I feel like this should be on the list for whatever reason.
7. My therapist told me that if I get stuck, I should start putting things other people say about me?  So uh my friend Kevin gave me this list: "pretty, nice, funny, smart, artistic, caring, friendly, humble, tolerant, sincere".
8. My mom says I'm a good sister.
9. I am a decent singer, I suppose?  I've been told that I have a nice, soothing voice and that I can very easily put others to sleep.
10. I really want to create. (There's also a lot of destructive tendencies in me but let's just focus on that for now.)  I really like making things, and I want to learn to make more things.  Let's just casually devote another post for that later, shall we?

And uh I guess that's good enough?  Hope so, anyways.

Lee's Writing Resources

Since Blogger was being a snooty meany to me earlier, I decided to try making the writing resource list on Google Drive! So uh here's a link for anyone who wants it.  I might also do one for drawing, and possibly others if I feel like it.  Making lists will either calm me or get on my nerves, depending on my mood ahahaha.

Writing Notes 1

Alright, putting a 1 there because I know for a fact that I'll have more collected in the future.  Besides, this is p.much just a post for everything that I know that could help Eva, since she's starting screenwriting! Uh, keep in mind that there's gonna be a lot of repetitive stuff since it's me typing this and you probably know a lot of this already, and this is all just from what I know and so it might not work for everyone, and it might not even be correct, but uh yeah.

The Animal In You (Personality Test)

So, I took this test!  I'm kinda questioning its accuracy, but ohwell